I heard myself utter the impassioned plea, “Can you please just do what I am asking without
offering a better way to do it?”

I was exhausted both physically and mentally; drained from the effects of raising 2 small people

• While my husband was deployed (again).
• And we were living overseas in a country I hadn’t yet learned to enjoy.

The conversation with my pre-K child continued…

“Can you please just trust that I have a plan?
AND that I don’t really need your input concerning the plan?
I know what I am doing.
It’s going to be good…if you will just listen and obey.”

The conversation was replayed in my head during nap time that day as I was scrubbing the
floor. Actually, it was more of me complaining to God – laying out all my woes and complaints of
the day. I asked, “Why does she always have to have a different plan?”

The reply came in the form of a stirring in my spirit. It was a gentle voice that responded – “why
do YOU always have to have a different plan? Why don’t YOU just trust me?”

OUCH.

Talk about getting my toes stepped on. Here I was complaining about my sweet child, looking
for some validation that I was right, and it got thrown back on me. This was NOT what I had
planned at the beginning of the conversation!

God ALWAYS has a plan, and -spoiler alert- it is ALWAYS better than mine. He tells us this over
and over again in scripture.

• Is 55:8-9
• Prov. 19:21
• Ps. 33:11
• Jer. 29:11
• Is. 25:1

His plans are good, and sure, and have been in place since before the foundations of the world.
I can barely make a plan past tomorrow morning:

• Get up (in the dark)
• Read my Bible (in the dark)
• Drink my first cup of coffee (in the dark)
• Count the down the days until the sun rises earlier than me

Since His plans have been in place for longer than I can fathom, you’d think I would figure out
by now that I can trust his plan. Even when He doesn’t reveal it all to me at one time.

I eventually learned that lesson all those years ago, but apparently I need a refresher from time
to time. This time it is to a different small person, still my child, that I hear myself uttering those
words to once again:

“Can’t you please just trust me and do what I am asking?”
“You don’t need to worry about what is coming next, you just need to do what I am asking right
now.”

I am once again reminded of the lesson from all those years ago.
I take a step back.
And take a deep breath.

And trust that I don’t have to figure it all out.